Did you know that being last isen't really that bad.. because being the last invited, the last thought of, the last given to, the last of everything... it just makes you realize their is SOO many fake people in this world.. but you don't need any of them.. not any of the dumbass 2faced lieing sack of worthless shits!

I cry thinking of you.. because I LOVE YOU SOO BAD!!! but you don't even know or realize that I'm dying to be with you!!

My eyes bleed from all of the tears I've cried for you!

SOOO TODAY WAS FINALS. THEY WERE PRETTY EASY. ALL I HAD TO DO WAS BASICLY TAKE REALLY EASY TESTS AND TALK ALL HOUR IN ALL OF MY CLASSES... THEN AFTER SCHOOL MICHELLE, HOLLY, AND I WENT TO BLAKES THEN WE ALL WENT TO RICHARDS AND THEN WE DROPPED JAIME, BLAKE, AND THOMAS BACK OFF AT BLAKES AND WENT AND HUNG OUT WITH HENRY AND ZACK FOR A COUPLE OF MINS.. I MISS HANGING OUT WITH HENRY.. AND ZACK!! SOO.. YEAH TONIGHT WAS PURDDY SPIFFY.. LOL THATS A FUNNY WORD!! BUT I HAVE ONE MORE DAY OF FINALS AND THEN IM GOING TO STAY HOME ON WEDNESDAY AND HAVE AN EXTRA DAY ON MY BREAK! HOLLY'S GUNNA SEE IF SHE CAN TOO.. AND MICHELLE..

BUT I BROKE UP WITH TOM. ACTUALLY HE HASENT GOTTEN THE LETTER YET BUT I SEE US AS BROKEN UP BECAUSE HE'S GOING TO KNOW... WELL I GUESS HE'LL FIND OUT ON CHRISTMAS.. THAT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE CRAP.. GETTING DUMPED ON CHRISTMAS.. I HAVE REALLY BAD TIMING!!

CHANGING THE SUBJECT. I NEED TO SERVE MY HOURS I HAVE A MILLION DETENTIONS AND I MIGHT HAVE A COUPLE ATTENDENCE. HOPEFULLY NOT TOO MANY... BUT I THINK IT'S GAY HOW EVERYONE'S GETTING ON HOMEBOUND OR WHATEVER.. WELL.. ITS NOT REALLY EVERYBODY BUT IT'S MEGAN AND HOLLY AND NOW NO ONES GUNNA BE AT SCHOOL WITH ME.. WELL.. THEIRS STILL ALOT OF PEOPLE BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN!!

BUT I GUESS IM GOING TO GO..

PEACCE HOME SLICCES!!

MaKe SuRe YoU rEaD tHe LaSt ThInG iN tHe PoSt!!!

I HATE MY STEP DAD SOO MUCH.. HE'S SOOO FREAKING GAY! I WISH HE WOULD GO TO WAR OR SOMETHING AND NOT COME BACK!!!! I KNOW MY MOM WANTS A DIVORCE BUT SHE JUST DOSENT DO IT I DONT KNOW WHY.. BUT I SERIOUSLY HATE THAT LITTLE PEANUT SUCKER!!

Changing the subject..

Last night was fun. Megan spent the night. We went to Richard's house with Holly, Blake, Jaime, Thomas, Michelle, and a crap load of other people was there! But I had fun. Blake cut my finger by throwing shit at me.. and then I almost passed out because he was choking me. And Thomas almost killed me trying to get his freaking lighter! Soo.. yeahhh.. it was crazzy!!

Do you ever feel like your being used?? But not just by random people... by your friends!?! I feel like some of my so called "friends" only talk to me when I have a car.. or only talk to me to see if I have the car!! And then some of them can sit there and say "I DON'T WANT TO DITCH HER" but then they can fucking ditch me. That's purddy screwed up if you ask me!! And these people sit there and act like were best friends when in reality I just want to hit them.. they can go fuck themselves because I tired of it!! I don't want to be friends whit people like that!!! All I have to say is

SCREW YOU!!!!

Hey.. what's crackin? Not too much here. Last night was really fun. I got sooo StIzOoNeD. I can't even remember what all we did.. it was just too much fun.. lol. I sound like a nerd! But yeahh.. I'm gunna go take a shower because Holly's saposted to be getting her car. So I'll talk to you all later!

MuAhJessica

Holly~> Hey! I think you need to tell your parent to feed you.. because you always come to my house and eat my food!! LOL. j/k i lylas!!

Megan~> You won't read this unless I read it to you but your funny and no matter how weird you are I love you! ha ha! lylas!! 

Thomas~> Your funny! Your mean too.. You better be careful or I'll push YOU out of a car!  lol.

Big Red~> Your funny! I miss you and Ash. Let's hang out sometime this week! OKaY? okay!..

Zack~> I miss hanging out with you and i miss being able to talk to you! But we should hang out when your ungrounded too!

Jon~> We NEVER hang out... and we should this week somtime.. or on our break or whenever! just call me!

So.. yeah. I didn't go to school today either.. I guess I didn't feel good this morning so I just stayed home. I went to the doctors. Then Holly came and got me and we went to Richard's house with Josh and Blake. Then we left and Holly and I went to Win's house and that one Petry kid was there. Jeff Petry's older brother. I think his name is John or something. Yeah it was funn. but I'm gunna go..

PEEAACE!